4 posts tagged “fangirling”

This Thursday in my Japanese class it's my turn to present an "ippunkan supiichi."  A one-minute speech.  So early in the semester, too.  Damn my last name being early in the alphabet.

One minute doesn't seem like much right now... but talking about something in Japanese, to a class, one minute becomes a very, very long time.

I couldn't figure out what to talk about.  I didn't want to immediately out myself as a fangirl becuase I think people can get the wrong impression there.... I brainstormed topics, including

• What's cool about natural foods!
• Japanese cooking
• One of my all-time favorite bands, Do As nfinity
• Pandas

Talking about Japanese cooking in front of Japanese teachers seemed intimidating... I didn't really want to talk about food anyway, and as much as I'm a big fan of natural & local foods, I really don't want to sound preachy or condemning, and again I think people might get the wrong impression.  Do As Infinity could be a fun one... I though about pandas but explaining stuff about habitat seemed difficult.

Other thoughts included personal experience, but I don't have many interesting stories besides the few times I've gone overseas, and I don't want to sound like, "oooh, I'm SO international, I've been overseas and you HAVEN'T~~~ I've been to EUROPE, ooh la la, aren't I SPECIAL~~~" because I wouldn't want to hear it if I were in the audience either.

I could talk about choir which I dearly love, but unless you've been in a choir I don't know how to make it interesting.

I want to talk about something I'm familiar with already to make things comfortable and simple...it's an intimidating task for me.

the obvious solution is to talk about idols.

I'm not JUST going to talk about Arashi though.  If somebody doesn't know what an Idol is (I think at least 50% of the class might not?) it would still just seem wierd and strange, like what do they actually DO?

Instead I'm going to talk about Idols and how they're different from most American celebrities, and why I like them, and use Arashi as my example.

This is also convenient because I'm required to bring in a visual aid.  "A" visual aid.  more like five. xD I think I will bring my cookbook, the Arashi Is Alive! photobook, the Time album, my chopsticks, my Sho uchiwa, and the Truth and One Love singles.  Other stuff stays at home. 

XD I really don't know how or when I accumulated so much merch... surely if I were to total up how much it's all cost I would cry. 

another ramble.

DEAR WORLD: I AM A HUGE FANGIRL.

FANGIRL.

it's not merely that I love my idols... I don't simply want them to 'be mine.'  I FANGIRL over them.

They make me absolutely squeal, even though I never have and never will met them.  I don't know them personally, they will never know or care about me as an individual (only as a fan, becase they love their fans!).

Everytime they smile, I smile.  When they laugh it brightens my day.  Their songs, however much they may be manufactured pop, cheer me up.

And I'll be straight about this, because I know we can all get a little fangirl posessive, and it's easy and kind of fun, but.  I love them for who they are as people I look up to and admire... whatever the Jimusho's policy may be I want them to date and be happy and I hope someday they all get married and have ADORABLE little Arashi-babies with women they really love.  *dies at the thought of adorable baby Sakurais*

...I think being a fan is really a wonderful thing, isn't it? Because I know I'm not the only one who feels this way.  It's not merely a selfish process of always taking from your idols and demanding more from them.... the way that fans put so much emotion and care and love and support into this... it makes me really happy to be able to be a fan.

Not a crazy stalker (though close :'D), not someone with just a crush on them, not a casual observer, but a fan.

<3

anyway, sorry for all the crazy fluff. ^^

I know there's still some dust flying around from the scandal, and the magazine released something trivial about Sho being seen somewhere with two girls in miniskirts (::eyeroll:: who cares? big deal!).  But Ohno's CMs are still airing and he's more or less clean.  The photos have been denied, there's no proof, no penalties, he's backed by the Jimusho.

So my little fangirl world is back on its feet.

Fandom still seems to be staggering a bit.  But I'm getting the sense that as individuals we're mostly ready to move on.  I'm all for it.

I know it was a pretty frightening scare, but it's pretty much over now.  The damage is done and our worrying does no good.  The best thing we can do now...  is to go back to what we do best.  Fangirling like the world's going to end. :D  Not letting all the voices of negativity that are still out there stir stuff up and get us down.  Put it in the past.

Basically, all this scandal news has worn me out.  I've reported in to action where it's needed, I've shown my support.  I"m really happy to see how Fandom has united its crazy little self for the better here.  I'm proud of all of us. ♥

That said, I'm a bit exhausted from all of this.  No more energy to fight.  I need a bit of a recharge period.

I'm happy to see that things are looking up.

*goes off to flail self to death over Sho*

if you'll allow me I need a moment to flail.

I EFFING LOVE THIS MAN.

HE'S GORGEOUS AND REFINED WITHOUT BEING ALOOF OR TOO GIRLY.

HE'S INTELLIGENT

HE'S GOOD NATURED

HE HAS AN ADORABLE SENSE OF HUMOR

I LOVE HIS LAUGH

HIS LIPS ARE GODLY

HIS EYES KILL ME

I LOVE HIS PHYSIQUE

HIS NOSE IS ADORABLE AND SO ARE HIS EYBROWS AND HIS FOREHEAD AND BASICALLY HIS WHOLE FACE.

I LOOOOOVE HIS VOICE WHEN HE'S SPEAKING.  I LOOOOOOOVE IT.  I LOVE HIS VOICE WHEN HE'S RAPPING.  I ALSO REALLY LIKE HIS UNIQUE, HUSKY VOICE WHEN HE'S SINGING AND I'M REALLY, REALLY PICKY ABOUT COMPLEMENTING PEOPLE'S SINGING BUT HE PASSES.

I love his wit, he always looks classy, he's full of leadership qualities, the way he fails at things is adorable and he knows how to make fun of himself (in a good way).  He cares about his family, he's very outgoing and has tons of friends (even with normal people! orz In his college days!), he loves to travel, he always tries his hardest.  He's mature, knows how to take charge and organize things, but doesn't always demand the spotlight.

He's perfect.

If he has any flaws they're minor and not enough to bother me in the least.  I don't know what could bother me about him.

He's like my definition of the perfect man, physically personified.

This has been looping in my head obsessively and it's only been getting worse of late ♥♥♥♥♥♥

I needed to get it out. ♥