5 posts tagged “rambling”

i really want takeuchi yoshikazu's book, "I LOVE ARASHI." XDDDDDDDD
i'm sure i could only just barey read it.
but i would try.
and probably learn a lot.
SEE?  arashi is educational.♥
i'm not even kidding, i've learned so much more japanese through them, way more than from anything else.
(even if it *does* mean i prefer masculine nihongo lololol)
i'm so proud someone wrote a book like that♥
better yet a fifty-something old man. XD i just... oh... it makes me laugh. >w<

in other news, it's a -20 windchill and my car won't start. :\  looks like i can't go to paige's tonight because how will i get there?  her place doesn't lie on the closest bus line. orz
but!
i will still go to the gym because it's not that cold (lol well if you're wearing a coat and hat and gloves and scarf over several layers and walk fast, i mean) and because i feel like i ate a lot today.  already.  at 4pm.  i should go soon, though. and anyway that's easier to get to with a bus than paige's house.  i'm annoyed about that though.  how will i get to xiao's tomorrow?  what if i wanted to go meet up with mary on saturday?  LSKjlksjl? slkslkj?  aasdflkdk?

i have spent the past two days rifling through Only Arashi Files for what i want, and i can't find it.  :\  i might have to make a request.
still haven't watched dramas or sent letter to penpal...
orz
maybe i will do that tonight when i'm all busy NOT hanging out with paige.
orz
I AM SO UNPRODUCTIVE.

i got textbooks yesterday... TT_____TT  too much literature.  i'm looking at it going, "I HAVE TO READ THIS MUCH STUFF IN ONLY 15 WEEKS?!  NOT POSSIBLE. TOO MANY WORDS.  I'M A HUMAN, NOT A READING-MACHINE." [/jim gaffigan voice] hahahah i have gotten SO SO mentally lazy.
next week sometime, i guess, i need to go get a few more things from the student bookstore. xD like more SWEATPANTS. xD really warm fuzzy ones that say my university's name on them♥ and then i can wear them to class all the time when it's this cold.♥

i need to go to the restaurant i used to work at and pick up the check that i forgot to pick up there.  but i can't get there if my car won't start. OTZ
DAMMIT.  i hate winter here. orz

so the Time con dvd is on my tv right now.

and may I just say.

I'm DYING to go to a con.  and see them in person.  and bask in the ULTIMATE FESTIVAL OF GAY that is an Arashi live.

SPARKLY COSTUMES AND FEATHERS AND GAUDY CLASHING COLORS.  HUGE NEON-LIGHTED PLATFORMS, RIDICULOUS STAGE PROPS, LOVELY GAY MUSIC AND INCREDIBLY RIDICULOUS DANCING. I LOVE IT SO. SO. MUCH.  IT HURTS I LOVE IT SO.  WANT TO GO~

gah I love the cult of Arashi. (don't we all?)

RAKKI RAKKI BABY SHIGOTO WA RASUTO NO OH MAI GURUUBU~ SHAKA SHAKA BABY KYOU MO TANOSHII~~

can I just climb up to the roof of my building right now and SCREAM that at the top of my lungs?

(haahaa apparently my voice is not dead enough from yesterday's karaoke yet. x3 )

gahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. love. &hearts;

yeah A-RA-SHI! A-RA-SHI! MOTTO A-RA-SHI!

it's nearly absurd just how HAPPY and EXCITED watching the Time con makes me.  But then if you're reading this you probably know how it feels. so it's okay. &hearts;

I want to the DVDs for Dream-A-Live to come out (and no complaining that it won't be as good as Time con! D: Arashi Gay is Arashi Gay!).  I can't wait.  I need more con gay. ;o;

another ramble.

DEAR WORLD: I AM A HUGE FANGIRL.

FANGIRL.

it's not merely that I love my idols... I don't simply want them to 'be mine.'  I FANGIRL over them.

They make me absolutely squeal, even though I never have and never will met them.  I don't know them personally, they will never know or care about me as an individual (only as a fan, becase they love their fans!).

Everytime they smile, I smile.  When they laugh it brightens my day.  Their songs, however much they may be manufactured pop, cheer me up.

And I'll be straight about this, because I know we can all get a little fangirl posessive, and it's easy and kind of fun, but.  I love them for who they are as people I look up to and admire... whatever the Jimusho's policy may be I want them to date and be happy and I hope someday they all get married and have ADORABLE little Arashi-babies with women they really love.  *dies at the thought of adorable baby Sakurais*

...I think being a fan is really a wonderful thing, isn't it? Because I know I'm not the only one who feels this way.  It's not merely a selfish process of always taking from your idols and demanding more from them.... the way that fans put so much emotion and care and love and support into this... it makes me really happy to be able to be a fan.

Not a crazy stalker (though close :'D), not someone with just a crush on them, not a casual observer, but a fan.

<3

anyway, sorry for all the crazy fluff. ^^

I broke another string today, BEFORE the music store opened and BEFORE my guitar exam.  And I no longer had any spares because that's actually the second time I've over-tuned the first E-string. klhjfjdgdshflgkh.

So after some... friendly ribbing... from my guitar professor, I did my little guitar performance quiz thing just using stuff that didn't use the first string, as much as possible.

Ha ha.  I always laugh everything off but really I wish I could do things a little more gracefully.  I am such a thoughtless person.

AND BY THE WAY MY TUNER WAS EFFING CALIBRATED WRONG AND I DIDN'T REALIZE IT.  So I was NOT crazy for thinking, okay, well, it says it's at a flat Eb, I guess I'll just keep tuning the E-string and SNAP.  And I couldn't really tune much by ear because I don't have a piano and all of my other strings, thanks to my miscalibrated tuner, were also all sharp by like, a whole step. DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD:<

...this seriously just... has not really been my day.  OTZ

Or week?  Or month?  I cannot find a bloody job, and partly it's probably because I'm made of fail, and partly it's probably because NOWHERE is hiring.  *dies*

all that said, I have no soymilk for my coffee and cereal, and no cereal to boot, and I'm out of apples and toilet paper.  Off to grocery shop. *dies again*

Tomorrow I am sleeping in.  None of this damn waking-up-before-8 business.  nooooooo.  I am sleeping in until 11.

i woke up at 8 to watch himitsu-chan, and i HATE mornings.

and tbs doesn't even appear to be listed on keyhole

and tvu can't seem to connect to it for me.

but i know it works somewhere because the people talking in the sidebox of tvu player -

even though they're talking in Chinese and i can't understand it  -

i recognize names like ninokazuki and arashijunsho, and somebody just said 'childminder'.

so i know somewhere, someone is watching arashi on tvu.

THIS IS KILLING ME.... WHAT MUST I DO ACCESS TBS. ;A;

i'm missing it.. i'm going to miss the whole thing... and then i'll have to wait for uploads... and i'm not good with patience...

*dies*